Drugs,
If it was possible I would gladly cut your throat and watch you bleed. You have taken some of what should have been the happiest times in my life and turned them into a nightmare. Failing being able to do that, I would happily substitute the men and women who profit from you while destroying the lives of others. I am not talking the small dealer here, but rather the ones who are smart enough not to use you in their lives but do not have enough humanity in them to care about others as long as it profits them. While it is easy to blame the dealers, the manufacturers and yes even the government, in the end I still blame you, the drugs. I wish it was as easy as killing you to get you out of my life, if so you would be dead and if I had to pay for that then so be it. If I could switch places with Chris and Taylor, I would gladly go to my grave knowing you are no longer part of theirs or the children’s life. But I would never trust you to keep your promise, for you are a liar and deceiver. You lure people in with promises of paradise and bliss, while actually only offering hell. Many believe that hell is fire and brimstone, but that is not my belief, I belief on the surface it looks like paradise. A place that is too good to be true. It is only when you have taken too many steps into this wonderland that you realize that the path back has faded and the all of the beauty is only a glamour to hide the pain and suffering that was just below the surface.
You took the time that was set aside for Chris to learn how to be a man and wasted it. This was the time when he could learn to control his actions and emotions. What he thought of as euphoria was in actuality only a slide into the upper levels of hell. You have taken the trust that was his to have and destroyed it, with him not even aware of it going away. You stole moments that should have been precious moments from his life and from our life. We will never see him graduate, or go to the prom or the joy of the first good job out of school. You have taken moments that should have been awakenings into adulthood and buried them so deeply that he could not even get a sense of accomplishment from them if he had been able to complete them. Were you happy to stop there, no as you introduced Chris to another of your subjects and together they went further into your dreamland looking for the glimpse of paradise that you had showed them, never realizing that they were just going to the next level of hell. By this point you had already taught them to lie and deceive, to cheat others and to have no empathy for those that loved them. You had tricked them into the belief that those that love them were helpless to stop their actions and that there was no help for them. You even managed to replace the love God has built into parents for their children. As long as you stay in their lives, you will always make yourself first and everything else, including their own children a far and distant second.
Beyond that you have intruded into the lives of their parents and grandparents. As we struggle to help them recognize the hell they are voluntarily committing themselves to, we have been forced to also shoulder their responsibility. This will end, as I will no longer support the hold you have on them. If that hold is stronger than the love they have for their children and their families, then I will admit defeat and do what I can to protect the children from you. Because of you we have had to put our lives on hold to try and help them find a path out of your glamour, a path that you try to continue to hide. You also use others to bring them back by tricking them into thinking you are their friends and it will be different this time. You continue to hang that carrot in front of them and like a mule they just keep plodding along hoping for the glimpse again.
I look around and see the devastating effect you are having on the world and I wonder how we ever allowed this to be. I know you have always been there, a tool for the devil if you will, used to destroy love and family and self-respect. I see a generation that has fallen even more under your influence then past generations. I wonder if this one will have the strength to throw off the yoke of slavery that they are so willing to put on for you. I also wish I could say that it was isolated to this generation or that, but I see people of all ages falling for your tricks. Yes I know you are sitting there laughing and say but I help people, imagine the pain without me. You have even convinced the people who should know better, doctors and such, that you are good and a necessary evil. You have managed with the pushers you have at your disposal to slip the shackles of controls and place them on your creators. There is a place for some of your benefits in the short term, but in the long term, you are much worse than the pain you are supposed to help relieve. Now you have idiots in power who go well let’s just make this legal it will stop there. How you must laugh when you hear that. Imagine how much more power you will have to enslave us when you can legally give that first glimpse at what you call paradise. Natural or not you find the weakest points in our lives and manipulate them to make us weaker and enslave not only those who fall prey to your trap but those around them also. I consider the first drink, the first puff and the first injection to all be times when you are tempting us to fall for your lies. Each one after the first is just another small step closer to the edge. An edge where you are waiting with the shackles so that you can claim another victim as you pull them over the edge and throw them into the hell you have waiting. The amount of power you wield is greater than just about any other power in the universe. You hear that love is the strongest emotion in the human mind, but it is also our greatest weakness as you will gladly replace the love of a child with the love of a drug. It is truly sad that every day there are examples of children being neglected, abused and killed while those that are there to love and protect them are too busy trying to get your attention, never realizing the more they try to get that attention for that glimpse, they more you demand of them and the more they are slaves. Then you use the love of those around them trying to save them from themselves, to entrap them in a cycle that is hard to break, always just waiting there for that chance to grab them too. “How does it generally go?”, oh you are stressed because of the drug addicts in your life, well here I have a pill that can help you…..BANG! another one in the trap with a glimpse and a world where the stress is not gone but just not as noticeable.
You scare the hell out of me and that angers me, which is in and of itself another of your traps. Just have a drink to help take the edge off, just ask the doctors for something to help you relax or sleep. You have become so pervasive in our lives that most do not even see you anymore. As a species we have become wimps and you have been there every step of the way. Always ready to lend a hand to help make it just a little bit easier, less painful, and more beautiful. We have become a species that thinks the only way to deal with pain, grief, stress, discomfort or even having to deal with others is to take a pill or a drink or a puff of this or that. Our government supports you in so many ways it is not funny. They waste our money in attempts to stop you that are doomed form the beginning to fail. They want to stop the supply while not dealing with the demand. Part of that is because in many instances the supply is also lining their pockets.
One of your greatest weapons in your control over the addicts and their families is the sense of shame and embarrassment you include in your view of paradise. No one wants to talk about it as they are embarrassed or think others will question how they raised the child. To many times I have heard that as the excuse for not addressing drug addiction or addiction of any kind. “What will my friends think?”, “They must think I am a horrible parent.” and on and on with the reasons not to address you while you just sink your claws in deeper and deeper. I know I fell for that trap also, there were times I should have gone to other parents when I saw their children involved in the same thing, but I did not and shame on me for that and for allowing you to dictate my actions. It is amazing how quickly and easy it is to look the other way for fear of getting involved or embarrassing the other family. I am over having something have that type of control over my life and my morals. I get asked some days what is wrong, and I will talk to others and tell them the trials that you are costing in my life. I am no longer embarrassed by what you have done to my child. I have come to the realization that I did the best I could for him and that he is making his own choices. The greatest shame is that we have become a country of “do not get involved in others business because you may offend them or embarrass them”. We are so ready to sue others to hide what is going on that it is counterproductive and damaging to this society. This is just another way for you to slide into the void created by people being afraid to address bad behavior.
So again let me say, if it was possible I would kill you, but unlike you I would give a quick and clean death rather than the slow death you hide behind your lies. The part of your lies that so many miss, is that even when someone finds the path out, the road back is so short and the damage you have done is just hidden below the surface waiting for the next chance to drag them back into hell along with everyone who loves them and cares for them.
